Effing provera!

I'm trying to induce a period with Provera and I'm on day 6 (of a 10 day supply at 10mg) and I don't feel AF coming on at all yet. For some reason, I had it in my head that once I started taking it, AF would appear right away. Apparently I'm delusional in this expectation.

I'm on CD 34 and hoping to have AF and get rid of her before our fabulous European vacation on the 16th. My RE has wanted me to take this for some time in order to see if it induces a period. If I'm recalling his instructions correctly, if it works it means that my (suspected) inability to ovulate is a simple miscommunication between my reproductive organs, which can be remedied with some meds. If not, it's a brain communication issue. So... I'm just hoping this stuff starts working to get that answer squared away.

To add insult to injury, I've been feeling ridiculously bloated since being on this garbage--way worse than AF. Today I stepped on the scale and almost had a heart attack. I didn't expect this AT ALL as a side effect, but maybe that just means that I should have googled more before poppin' these lovely pills. I've been pretty good about eating right and monitoring my salt intake, but I seriously feel like I ate 7 bags of Fritos! Jesus Christ! 2 days left of these bitches... I wonder how fast will this go away??

The motion in the ocean

So I had my last visit to my RE today for awhile. I had the saline ultrasound this morning and it looks like my organs look healthy/normal. Huzzah for good news!

The procedure itself was actually totally painless for me, I didn't even feel the cervical catheter (TMI?) But after I got to work, I was kinda crampy and I still am, but not bad at all. We also got to do my wrap-up conversation for all of this testing that I've been doing.

My endometrial biopsy came back normal, my FSH levels came back normal, but I have elevated estrogen which indicates the presence of cysts, and then my ultrasound was normal. So he wrote me a prescription for provera to induce periods if I don't have a period on my own. The other option is to go on BCP's, which I refuse to do ever again. So no more going 73+ days! Yahoo!

Super Fun Time aka My Big Fat Endometrial Biopsy!

Whoohoo! Had a little bit of fun this morning with my RE, as I had my endometrial biopsy. I wasn't quite sure to expect as everything did say that it would hurt, I'd have cramping, etc.

While it wasn't fun, it really wasn't that bad. Similar to an uncomfortable pap with a few icky cramps afterwards. So now I start provera, wait for a period, go back for my saline ultrasound, do my zpack, and then do bloodwork.


I have some ridiculous, irrational thoughts about this saline ultrasound that I'm afraid to ask the RE's office about. Suffice it to say, I have visions of a powerwasher, a RE in a raincoat and goggles, and then having my uterus filled like a balloon. I have visions of leaking all over the place, but being bloated enough that I look PG.

Irrational, right? RIGHT?!?!

Update on Vagina Day 2008

Please forgive me on spelling/if anything is out of order. I left my papers at home, so I'm going from memory, but I think I have it:

I have to have an endometrial biopsy on Friday (and bloodwork, but it's the same thing we've done before but it needs to be updated), then we're doing progesterone to induce a period, then a saline ultrasound and a Z-pack of antibiotics.

I guess the concern is if damage has been done by going such long lengths of time without a period - you know, precancerous lining and what not. But some of it is to rule out potential issues, and make sure everything is in working order for when we're ready to pull the trigger on baby making (with clomid).

So that's the story. I think the results of all of this will determine when we'll start TTC. If things look healthy, I might put it off a bit longer. If things seem awry, we'll probably bump that date up a bit.

Oh one more thing to add! He asked who had referred me to him and I explained through my insurance, but then added that a lot of my friends had gone to him for a variety of issues. I sort of chuckled to myself because I wanted to say, "OH YEAH! You've seen at least 7 of my friends vaginas!!" The poor guy seems so gentle and sensitive, I'm not quite sure he would have known how to take that comment.

Now what really makes me laugh is that I didn't say it because I didn't want to make HIM feel uncomfortable--even though I was the one in the stirrups!

Happy Vagina Day!

Yeppers, I'm finally getting my little butt into see my RE to have my annual, share my inconsistent cycle information, and see about next steps in figuring out why I have defective plumbing.

You dirty whore...

Well, lookie who decided to saunter in the room and join in the fun!? Good old Aunt Flo finally got her lazy @ss off the couch after eating 2 bags of Doritos, a pint of ice cream, some chocolate cheesecake, and a handful of kosher dill pickles and then parked her happy ass in my vagina today.

I'd say "Yay for AF finally showing her face," but my crotch feels like it's been beaten with a mallet and set on fire and I'm bloated beyond recognition. Yeah... I said it! MY CROTCH HURTS! Oh, did I mention that I'm bitchy??? ;-)

CD72... WTF?

So after 4 months of finally having a regular cycle, I am without one again--I logged into Fertility Friend and found that I'm on CD72. I am totally positive that I'm not PG, so I think it's time to call up my RE for a follow up on my vajayjay.

I swear, my lady bits hate me. Sorry, this is just a stupid vent. Carry on.

You first. No, you. Please, I insist...

My older sister announced over the weekend that she is pregnant with her 2nd child. My neice is turning 4 in August, so there is a bit more of a gap between kids than they initially planned, but... well, you know--life is what happens while you're busy making other plans!

Anyway, DH was feeling a little bogged down last night, so we were talking about everything that he feels is piling up on him and he admitted that when he found out that my sister was PG, he felt a little jealous. He feels like he is getting older and that while he's really enjoying the freedom of where we are in our lives, that he has some major fears about having healthy children, being able to get PG, always imagined himself a younger parent.

It was a good talk. I told him that I think it's going to take him being ready to TTC to get me to fully come around. I don't want to be ready before him and I know it's going to take some getting used to the idea, but I think he has a lot of valid points. So it's interesting that it keeps coming up--we're not quite there yet, but I really do appreciate that we're able to talk about it that openly and I feel like we're on similar pages. It feels good.

That's it. Nothing that interesting. Just thought I'd share.

Question for the interweb

Do the Dollar Tree OPK's actually work? This past month I did temping/charting to see if I actually ovulate because our raw vegan diet for January actually did some sort of kick-start to my period, but I'm not 100% that I O'd. I was thinking of picking up some DT OPK's, but I wasn't sure if they'd actually work.

Lurking in the dark is creepy, isn't it?

I was hoping I could have a little discussion with the "not TTC... yet!" girls that I'm sure are lurking on here.

Who's out there? What's holding you back? How does DH feel? How often do you talk about it? When do you think you're going to be ready to TTC? I've gone through phases before where I felt ready to TTC, but I haven't had one of those "episodes" for awhile.

I worry about TTC because I know that I have some hormone issues (my RE refers to them as "PCOS-like symptoms") and I'm turning 29 this year. I always thought I wanted to be a younger mom like my mom was, but time is quickly passing me by... I still see myself as 25 and too young to be a parent! I also feel like I'm enjoying it just being me and DH - spending money however we see fit, saving for a big vacation, etc.

I don't normally have a period, but this month DH and I did a 30 day raw vegan detox diet and I actually had a period! I'm tempted to ask DH if he wants to throw caution into the wind and see what happens next month. I can't help but think that nothing would happen, I just won't have a period again, but what if this diet made a change and I ovulate and get pregnant? I dunno...