I've been too busy smooshing these cheeks. And attending showers. And weddings. And planning showers and weddings and parties. 'Tis the season 'round these parts. It's been fun. Exhausting, but fun. And the cheek smooshing keeps me going.
But. There are other things and people on my mind tonight. A friend recently found out that the baby she is carrying will not make it. And while there are a lot of commonalities to this type of loss that I can empathize with, I know her journey has it's own complexities and unique devastation. But I know what that stab in the heart feels like and my heart absolutely goes out to her. I wish there was anything I could possibly do to take even a sliver of the pain away, but I know there is nothing. Nothing but I'm sorry's and a sympathetic ear.
And on a related note, it's almost August... It's been almost two years. While the pain doesn't usually take my breath away like it used to, the ache is there every single day. It's still completely shocking and surreal that I ever lived through that. And having a little one at home who looks so much like her big sister is a bittersweet reminder of what we lost.
I wish I had some way of closing this post off in a coherent manner, but tonight I've got nothing.
